Sunday, January 27, 2013

So, I Am Going To Be a Grandma

I have really appreciated all your comments and I have wanted to answer each of them personally but this whole thing has been overwhelming.  There is a good chance this baby could be born addicted and the thought of that makes my heart ache. There is an excellent chance this baby is going to be born malnourished and that also makes my heart ache.  This baby will be born at a low birth weight.  But what can I do? It is what it is. As the saying goes, you need a licence to own a dog or catch a fish...

But yes, I am going to be a grandma.  (It will be Nana for me.) I am just going to do the best I can.  I have bought my step-daughter some books of pregnancy and also one on breastfeeding. I have started looking around for a crib/basinette/change table etc.  Soon I am going to look for baby clothes and wee things that a baby will need.  Because, in the end this baby is really going to need the love of an extended family and it looks like I am up to bat.  And I don't mind.  In fact, aside from all the problems that this child may encounter I am actually looking forward to his/her arrival.  (I keep ordering children's books because I am going to read to this child!) I have so much love to give and this baby is going to never doubt my love.  When he/she is grown she will say, My nana loved me so much.  The same love that my grandparents gave me.  The same love my parents gave my kids. Come on baby, I am waiting. You are already loved. 

19 comments:

Ms. Moon said...

Yep. Sometimes all you can do is accept reality and in this case, there will be many, many joys attached. Believe me.
I send congratulations and hopes that all goes very, very well.

English Rider said...

"Nana on a mission" let's start printing the T-shirts. Good for you. There's so much love in this post, that baby is going to be a lucky baby despite the negatives.

Nirvani Teasley said...

Birdie, I just checked in and saw your post!! I got goosebumps for some reason...and it bit teary-eyed. Welcome to the grandmother's club my friend! You being this child's grandmother is not by chance...The Universe has plans for you lady;) Something tells me you will play a special part in this child's life:) and although she is not blood related you may just see your mother in her eyes:) May you be blessed beyond measure!!

Nirvani

Debra She Who Seeks said...

Baby clothes and accessories nowadays are so cute! You'll have fun browsing in the stores.

MorningAJ said...

I hope (s)he is wonderful. We already know how lucky the child will be to have you.

Jan said...

I am pleased for you Birdie. Yes love is the answer. xx

CrystalChick said...

That's a good attitude! You will be an awesome 'Nana'! Somehow you will figure out the right balance between not accepting all the drama that your step-daughter comes with and showering the wee one with love and affection.
I love being a 'Mimi'! You've seen those little grand darlings of mine. They melt your heart, it just happens.

Riot Kitty said...

The coming kiddo is lucky to have you!

heartinhand said...

It's the babies who are born with less that need the most, he or she is lucky to have you! (She should bottle feed, since she's a hot mess!)

Grandmotherhood is the best job ever!

Plowing Through Life (Martha) said...

I am sorry to hear about how the baby will arriving, but pleased to hear the love you have to offer. In the end, this is a precious new soul, and the more people that love and embrace it, the healthier and happier it will grow to be. You are a good, loving soul, and this baby will be lucky to have you!

Angella said...

You are making a powerful affirmation here. Your love for this baby may be just what is needed to alter his or her universe for good. Bless you.

Ofelia said...

I'm happy that this lovely baby is going to have support, love and care from her Nana and that she/he will have you there during the many ups and downs that life brings.
Hugs,

Elizabeth said...

Well, of course you will. I imagine that baby's welcome to the world will be far sweeter for her Nana in it.

Winter P. Dawson said...

I too got goosebumps reading this. What a beautiful outlook. There is always the off chance that changes of motherhood could change the condition of this mommy's soul, but if not the baby will be blessed with a loving Nana!

Sandy said...

Your loving welcome and reception will be the nurture this Child of God/Universe needs and will be the better for having you as its G'ma/Nana....hugs!!

Linda said...

YAY for Nana...
Bravo, Birdie...Bravo :o)
From someone who really knows...

Cheers!
Linda :o)

Tabouleh said...

This baby will be so lucky to have you there for him or her... I am so excited for you... even though i think you are much too young to be a Nana... still it is the most amazing feeling for you I am sure... congratulations.... I bet you will do all the things you wrote about and be so good at it too....

Jude said...

Okay, and holy cow you are going to be a grandma! Congratulations, you are going to be an awesome Nana!

Frostbite and Sunburn said...

Good for you - accept what you can and love it wildly!